0109am

I'm sitting on bed, rightbeside my girlfriend who is also blogging at this very minute, which in turn for some reason jus gave me the psyche to blog . ABout what i dont know, i haven't a clue so the following may or may not make sense but go with the flow yea? Who knows, it might turn out good.

It is really unjust to say how much you deserve a certain something? because, life, as it is, really never works out the way you want it to? And because there are so many of us, its hard to say whose right and whose wrong, whats fair and whats not. I guess when it comes down to earning whats yours, you just relaly have to work hard for it and when you get it dont worry about proving a point about how you got it , the fact of the matter is this. You got it. And even when like, certain people doubt you, you have your believers, somewhere, out there. I think. But hey whose to say one needs believers to get on with life?

Which brings us right down down down to judgement. Because we all feel right and others feel otherwise we simply dont agree it really is a vicious cycle cos it aint gonna fucking end. People will tell ya what the hell it is they want but wont ask you if ur ok with that? Everyone dont seem to own some sorta reflection or a mirror though they have in fact magnifying glasses to judge you at every time of your life. Judegmental, the whole world is just so critical of your every action so the best is to start out low and end up high. Cos when ur low and down, noones below you you read? You start up high ur gonna have one hell of a ride with people trying to put you down. Thats not sad, not tragic at all people, its just life. You live with that.

I mean, we're all liable to screw up but really all it takes is once. You do a million good things but you kill a puppy even if its by accident, you know you dead. The whole world gonna label you and negate you . Period. They wont remember you walked that old lady off the bus, they sure aint gonna remember you for being a lively player/captain whatever. Cause there are some people, that just wanna bust your ass.

Which really brings up back up to ourselves now doesnt it? your temperament cause its like a bag of beans, its light by nature but you spill it, its gonna be messed up like crazy and God knows just how long you take to fix that one up. It aint no game, neither is it a test of character, thats bullshit. Its just how much you wanna take. You game, ya take all the shit they throw at ya, ur not, you jus give ur ass up and surrender everything that cant be yours no more.

What are we here for? To live life to the fullest? i say ur here cos ur here, no reason. Maybe ur jus unlucky cos someones in heaven, thats for sure. But dont get me wrong, i love the guy, God himself. He aint got nothing to do with how im feeling. But wait, this isn't about me. Folks , you get what im reading to you? Its about life. That you should really jus plan your moves, do em right and dont let noone take anything away from you.

I mean, come on people, nothing ends. Troubles are meant to come your way. Its like bleeding. You wipe it, it goes away, its clean for a while but then it starts bleeding again. Reality check ladies and gentleman. NOthing goes your way, unless ur some big fat low confidence ugly piece of nothing, thenmaybe someone up there takes pity on ya, if not, you make things your way.

The life is yours man. Dont let someone else live it or make it go haywire if not, then ur really pathetic. And for those that remain judgemental all e time, your a bunch of lucky freaks. And please, for Christ sake, remember lifes important lesson, use ur brain man. God gave it to you for a reason. Go figure my drift.

What a post. What a post. Im in awe of my own inabilities.