Without a doubt

I can remember the previous times and sometimes i can even remember how it was like in primary school or in kindergarten with the very first crush. I remember it was a rather ugly drawing of a girl that really, looked more like a boy, with the words, i like you, in Chinese. And trust me, at k1, the word "xi" was quite a bitch to write. So anyway, i remember as far back as then. It wasn't even anything special. She just looked, kinda cute. Long hair tied up with green rubber bands and a white hair band, i remember that girl though the impression is rather vague.

I look at me now some 15 years later and its still the same story. well just about the same in that theres something about someone again, only deeper cause well after all I'm 19 and not 9. So i had spent my time at certain intervals of school looking out for someone. I remember that i told myself to let anybody know when it comes; That wave of uncertainty when shes there and yet that bold tract of heart. Its a feel to share at this juncture.

It has come and it truly is here.

Choreograph my fall.

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So the ruckus of a moment comes when you think that you're either fucked or in some kinda confused dilemma and its arguable to mention which is suicide when the latter happens. All right bless me with the fact that i have two legs and a brain. But God's a real genius. Not only are we all self fulfilled prophecy from time to time we are self problem creating beings on this side of earth. Forget the other side, they're probably thinking when to flood us.

But heres a little something to sit down and think about.

You go back, way back, and you think you could have made your life better if you changed a few things? we're fucked. One way or the other but take comfort in the fact that fucked comes in all shapes and sizes and thats, the epitome of life and john lennons a real prick of a genius to say whatever happens to you while you're making plans is life and just maybe thats why he dead.

We spend our whole lives owing explanations when theres no need for one.
everybody jus talk too much. asks too much. Expects too much.

Ibid.