The Imagined Her

It was that saturday afternoon, our first month together and i was really looking forward to seeing her sparkly eyes and that radiant smile again. As nervous as i usually was, i just blanked out trying to look at her, much less hold her hand. She brought about such a calm atmosphere around me, so much so that all was jus taken away in that one second. We talked about many things without needing to stop, our topics never ending and our common likes, only getting more as we knew each other better. She was dressed in a denim skirt with a neat long sleeved white top that fitted her perfectly. The luscious long hair made everything make sense. Then , all was right in place.


We walked on and stopped by for lunch at one her favourite cafes. A light eater she was, but such a funny person at lunch, the way she ate and how she just uttered every word even as she were munching her food away. I turned back to my usual habits and took out the camera. What images were taken were those of such value, of such natural beauty and of memories that noone could steal. She was about a half a head shorter than me, and spoke so confidently of every topic she had in her heart. we would bicker once in a while and point out who was more better looking than each other just to pick at one another. I'd pick some ugly stud whereas she would pick some ugly old woman and laugh about it. It was only one month, but our every actions seem to synchronize as one. I felt i knew her all my life.

We finished off and catched an evening movie. Funny how we could sit totally quiet at the theatre as we even held hands when watching the movie. I had so much to say but yet that feeling came upon me. That feeling where you go totally blank at the sight of the most perfect things. I guess some things could be seen when left unsaid. We stepped out of the theatre and started bickering about the endings and how we felt about the movie.

How was it that i was able to capture such things in life? A 2 hr bus ride could seem like 15 mins . I sent her home that night and on the train, she fell asleep on my shoulders as we both took the ride home that i wished lasted for eternity.

Relationships are a timing challenge. The shortest amount of time could seem so short because we could never get enough. Many a time we seek a "her" and wished certain things could be in certain ways. I guess many would see me as a flirt and since this blog is ending, for the record i love having the company of girls but thats different from being with someone i love. I believe out there there is a soul mate that we both seek out for. First loves are never the real deal they say at our teenage years, yet it carries the most beautiful memories. I decided to myself that i would have a camera by my side at every one time i and "her" could be together, this way i could recollect. Besides, who would wanna forget? I wished we were similar and wished she would be someone that welcomed perspective as well.

Im not much of a know it all, but i know when that feeling of having a crush is.It'd make you feel like a lil boy all crushed up inside witht hose recurring butterflies. But nothing comes without a price. I guess thats why they say love must be patient. I guess thats why im still being calleda flirt. haha, alil song for that special someone when you knew it was her: