I think the reason i am back writing is because i feel a continued stagnation will result in a stale stale death.

Courage is a very tender thing because it can be easily forgotten, not by others but by yourself. Its a lonely road up to courage and often we find ourselves mroe alone than ever. The truth is we are so scared that we dont realise there are people just like us. Yet the trigger of a laugh can make so much difference to that decisive step of couragel. I admire the ones who stand out not cause they want to but because they have to. Not becuse people dont expect them to but because they feel to. Nothing is tougher than standing by what you feel to do. And its noones responsibility or ability in fact to make you feel ant other dumb or stupid. For yes indeed,

" THE MOCKERY MADE HIM AN OUTSIDER AND FEELING AN OUTSIDER MADE HIM BEHAVE LIKE ONE."

People are going to talk no matter what, you might as well give them somethin to talk about. Thats what i believe. So in no way am i obliged to think the way people want me to think. Courage is not there to please but there to put a news flash right in our heads. Would we have been strong enough? If not, daring enough to do what he/she did? I say that question comes out scarcely. Even sometimes, to the people who did what they did. But sometimes, there are the people who see what you did and acknowledge what you did was more courageous than life was itself. It rang a bell and it left an impression. I've felt that way before.

The mockery makes one uncomfortable indeed but you must never feel an outsider or feel any different. The only way you can see yourself as different is that you did something that noone else did something that i dare say noone else would ever do even if they stood to gain. Once you feel an outsider, you behave like one. When that happens, you not only give in to the mockery and turn the tables on people that remember your moment of elegance but you also forget your own moment of prestige. But yet it is often that people pull through, and when they do, that is true courage.

You remember what you do, all of it and you take alot with you, for the rest of your life.


And i'm sure you will. For courage is alot more magical than most of us know. Its a pity only a handful of us have it.